Planning to go visit mother soon

I have not had the courage to go to the grave site since she passed away. Now I feel I must go and talk to her. That may seem strange, but I really do miss her input on my life, and the only place I feel comfortable with that intimacy is near where her body rests. I find myself many times subconsciously using her words, hearing her advice, and recounting her encouragements and praise. Those things take me to next levels, next steps, and generally remain on my walking path.